Monday, March 28, 2016

It has been quite some time since I've been here.  I can't seem to remember I have this avenue of creative expression.  It so gets on my nerves!  But thanks to She Writes, and emails from them, I have found this blog again!  It seems I haven't been here since 2014, but it truly doesn't feel like that long to someone who has memory issues.  To me, it seems I haven't been here for  a few months, not years.

Right now, what I'm dealing with is a move.  We are moving because my husband's heart health has gone downhill and my spine issues have gotten worse.  We can no longer maintain our acre of land due to these limitations.  So we are getting ready to move to an apartment and allow others to do those things for us.  I am not sure how I will survive this move, because when things are moved around, I have no memory of them.  I found this out when my daughter came and thought it would be great to rearrange things in my writing area and move all my reference books that didn't seem important to her, to a different place.  I had no idea how bad my memory loss was until those things were moved.  I was distraught for several days after that and all my reference books I was using in writing my book were gone and I have no idea where they are.  This move is going to be quite a challenge.  It's taken us eight years to set things in place where I could function at a seemingly normal level in my home and moving to a new place will be quite an experience I'm sure!

Yes, I'm writing a book which in itself is quite comical I must say, but also extremely frustrating.  From one day to the next, I have no memory of what I wrote, so I have to review what I was writing the day before so I can continue to write today.  I am writing a book talking of my thoughts and God thought it would be awesome if I checked out if my random thoughts matched up with what His word, the Bible, said!  Believe it or not, I was actually convicted of some shortcomings of my own, just by reviewing what I had written!  It's a great least that what I say every time I reread it! haha!  I am completely convinced that God has a huge sense of humor, because He watches me daily being amused by things I struggle with due to this memory loss and He laughs with me, then holds me on those days when I don't find my memory loss so amusing.

We are to overcome obstacles in our lives, not fold under them or throw tantrums and blame God because things may be hard.  He looks for us to learn from His Son Jesus Christ, as to how to continue, even in the worst of circumstances.  So I use Jesus as my example and work toward being the best me I can be in order to glorify Him and all He has done for me!

Well folks, nice chatting with you again!  I hope you missed me!  I hope I'll remember I have this blog so I can continue to share with you the twists and turns in life.  Stay joyful, trust in the Lord for all things, and laugh instead of cry!  Your days will go so much better that way!

LuAnn Marie

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